Monday, January 31, 2011

Hometown

After reading this, please let me know if you would like to hear more of the story and my thoughts on leaving.

I can close my eyes and still see the majestic pine trees in the Haven’s yard.  Standing still, I can feel the wind blowing gently over the land and through the trees rustling the pine needles.  I can smell the sweet smell of the soil after a rain.  If I try hard enough I can feel the warmth of the sun upon my face and arms and hear the wrens chirping as they fly to their nests. There just isn’t another place on earth as wonderful as my hometown.

If it was so perfect then why did I leave?  I have thought about this for the last 40 years.  The only answer I can come up with is that I didn’t see what was before me.  I hungered for change and adventure.  I wanted to see what was out there in the big wide world.  I didn’t see that the whole world was right there in that tiny town.  Age has had a way of making me look back and comparing the two worlds.  I now see that they aren’t so different.  

Saturday, January 29, 2011

My Gift

Some of you know that I was a caregiver to my husband for over 25 years.  The Lord has taken this burden/blessing from me, but not the lessons I learned doing it.  Here is one of the thoughts I had while I was in the care giving part of my life.  I pray it has meaning for you.
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The words of one of the songs we sign at church goes like this, “Finish what you started in me.” Are we always willing for God to finish what He has started when often we are so unwilling for Him to start in the first place?  For some of us the refiners fire is caregiving.  It is never easy.  It is a very demanding job.  We are always “on”.  There is no rest for us.  Even vacations are work for us.  We have to remember the needs and the special equipment while we are in unfamiliar places and on an unfamiliar schedule in a disability unfriendly world.

We did not willing and with full knowledge choose to be caregivers, but this is what God gave us.  A gift it sometimes seems in an ugly box.  The gift has been given though.  Ready or not we have to open it and take it out and use it.

We have been given a gift.  A gift of caregiving.  We are imitations of Christ.  The perfect caregiver.  It is our ongoing gift from God. He will not finish what he has started until we die.  But he will finish and we will fully be able to enjoy this very special gift.  A gift very few are given.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Left or Right? God's path for us

Stand at the end of your sidewalk.  Now close your eyes. Which way should you go?  Left or Right?  Can you imagine the paths ahead?  Even though you have seen them many times do you remember what they looked like?  Do you know how they have changed since you last were on them?  You must open your eyes to see what is ahead. To see where you are going.

Living a life with God is like this.  We all are going down a path, but to choose the right path we must open our eyes to see what God has in mind for us. We must look with the eyes of God.  We must see.  Sometimes there will be a bend in the path that we can’t see around, but as long as we are on the right path we will be all right.  It is the path God has chosen for us.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Dusty

We were all sitting at the table eating lunch.  It was rare that we would eat lunch together.  Usually Daddy would eat as he worked or would walk over to the house and grab a sandwich when it fit into his work.  We kids would just grab some veggies out of the garden whenever we got hungry.  But this warm summer day we were all together having a rather pleasant lunch together. 

The side door slammed shut.  We all turned around to see Randy  walking into the house.  He would just walk in whenever he wanted.  It didn’t happen often but still often enough that that we weren’t surprised to see him.  He casually walked over to the table and announced, “Ol’ Dirt is out sweeping under the snowball bush.”  It was all we could do not to laugh out loud.  Ol’ Dirt was our white husky dog that we had named “Dusty” since a white dog in Iowa would not stay white long.  With Randy’s lisp just turned Dusty’s little nap into sweeping.  Randy was only about five at the time, but Mom and Dad never tired of telling the story.  I am sure that Randy was a bit tired of the story by the time he turned thirty.

We got Dusty when we were living in Fountainelle Iowa.  I was about three years old.  We had a dog, shepherd I think, that came with the farm we were living on.  One day he ran out in the road and was hit by a car.  Truly bad luck for the dog as we lived on a country road and perhaps two cars a day would drive by.  Well, after the shepherd died Mom said that we would not be getting any other dogs.  Point blank.  No more dogs.  As the summer turned into fall and the days got shorter and colder we missed playing with a pet. Then the winter snows came and we were basically shut into the house.  One evening after supper there was a knock at the back door.  Momma opened it to find Grandpa stomping  the snow from his boots holding a little white ball.  The first words out of Mom’s mouth were “Dad, take that back where you found it!”

“Now Hester,” he said, “ the girls need a pet and this little fella is just what they need.” 

It didn’t take long for us to see that Grandpa had a puppy and to start playing with him right away.  Momma could sense defeat, so she claimed the right to name the creature.  “We’ll call him Dusty.” She declared.  “He’ll never be that white again living on a farm.”  Dusty was officially part of our family now.  He would move from Fountainelle with us to the house in Corning, to the farm outside of Brooks, and then finally to the house in Brooks.  He remained faithful to us through all of these changes and never once wandered far from home.  Dusty quietly passed into the afterlife one warm summer day at a very old age for a dog.  We missed him and I still think of him fifty years later.  I never was much of a dog person, but Dusty was ours.  That made him different.



Wednesday, January 19, 2011

A New Beginning

I started a blog over a year ago.  It was to soon after all the upheaval in my life to commit to anything that took so much work.  I am now in a much better place and living with the many blessings that the Lord has showered upon me.  I want to share my blessings and thoughts with you and encourage you to look beyond your daily grind to find the big and the little blessings that our Savior surrounds you with.  I also want to encourage each of you to think about these blessings to try to determine what you think God is communicating to you and how He wants you to use these blessings in your life.

Most of what I write here will be my original thoughts and the telling of my blessings.  I will on occasion post something that others have written (with their permission) that I think will be a blessing to you, my dear friends.

Put on a pot of tea, turn on some soft music, sit in a plush chair.  Now you are ready to join me in my life with God and His many blessings.  Welcome.